Mama Tree



Roots scratching towards the sky, fistfuls of soil clinging to softly wooded fingers. 
Those in the ground still hold out for hope, 
hold on to water, 
hold off this trunk from the forest floor. 

From her horizontal pose springs trees down the line. 
A dance of branches and solid trunks following a path that was once up up up. 
Now the lineage soars towards the jagged (firs, hemlock, mountains) horizon. 
The smaller trees queue up in their sky bent pursuits, business suits of bark and moss, briefcases of needles and dirt.

Are they young trees rooted into a dying elder? Or is it the mama tree fighting back against fate and gravity, not ready to give up on this being, not ready to decompose into the web of life below, sending out shoots? Are those young trunks her prayers to the Universe for one more shot at this being a tree thing? Is that what all young mamas think, unable to differentiate between the seed and self?

Branches tangle and confuse themselves as roots. 
The sky goes crumbly dark to match the tone of the soil. 
I reach up my hands to feel the rough skin of her back against fate-lined palms. 
There is no end, just roots and sky and branches and soil and the heartbeat of this giant forest within me.

Among the Giants


  
I wander over frost-crunchy meadows and marvel at maple leaves like snowflakes frozen in their gorgeous rust-colored decay.

Quietness settles over the valley as I weave towards the shore. 
The mountains shake with sunlight and stretch their dreams into the still blue sky. 

I pull my scarf more tightly around my chin, pull my hat down over my ears; I have not tasted winter in many years. But it is not yet winter, it is still the fall and I have a long descent ahead of me: nights of clouds obscuring those bright memories of light overhead, mist snaking through the dying grass, murders of crows screeching behind a curtain of early sunset. 

My breath comes in fogbanks, my laugh a blast of warning to those off my weaving bow. 
I see Tahoma on the horizon, a watery chasm between us, drift wood reaching spindly arms for the snowy peaks encircling this island. 

I walk these beaches, through these woods, through my door knowing I am Home. 
For now, forever, for as long as the island wants me, I am here and I am grateful.